Kei Hates You.

Justice?Tss.

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 09:44:51 GMT

If justice means putting a person, who is not guilty of raping someone in jail, then I would rather live a life without it.

I AM FOR L/CORP. DANIEL SMITH!

Pilosopiya.

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 09:24:00 GMT

Dear Sir Roy,

Dahil hindi ko po kayo sinagot noong tinanong niyo ako kung maganda ba ako, dito ko na lang po sasagutin ang tanong niyo...

I am beautiful in my own right.

Naks. The best ka talaga, Sir. :)

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 09:50:09 GMT

It was two days ago when i started writing about my heartches. And now, i realized that there can never be a better solution for this but moving on. Even before the semester starts, I already pepared myself for new things--new subjects, new profs, new loads of schoolworks, new friends. And luckily, i was able to begin the semester with a smile on my face. Still, there were a couple of times when the world turned its back on me. Things are not the same anymore. However, i still do not regret the fact that unlike before, i am much more independent now. I realized that having new friends and acquaintances is really fulfilling. This is something which i will never forget in my college life. I am super mahiyain especially when i am around strangers, but i tried to overcome this. Fortunately, i succeeded.

But this does not mean that i will already forget those people who made my two and a half years in the Ateneo so colorful and happy. I love my blockmates to death. They are incomparable. I hope that before the Christmas season starts, everything will be okay already. I hope.

Wednesday.

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 08:46:29 GMT

So far, school has been so-so-okay. met new friends and new profs, too. My schedule on Mondays is a little draining though. Got a 3-hour class and it's not healthy coz i go home late na and Papa leaves on Monday nights kaya i have to go home agad para i can eat dinner with them. Hay. Good thing there's someone in the class which ~~pushes~~ encourages me to attend that class. My ex-crush who is a babble is my classmate. And during the first day, we became groupmates agad. Our notebooks are the same. He sat beside me during the group discussion. And my name's next to his sa list ng mga magpapaphotocopy. Wahaha. How cool is that?

Anyway..

Have to read for my IPE class na.:)

Check This Out.

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 05:50:15 GMT

would you believe it???

http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/9267760.html

Ateneo Reg.

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 03:33:30 GMT

There are only two words to describe Ateneo Reg: NO SWEAT. Despite the irritating random numbers and super late ETA's (expected time of arrival) --If you are lucky enough to get a random number between 1-100, your ETA is 0730 so there's no need fo you to complain--i still salute the Ateneo for a very systematic and orderly registration. Ive been quite lucky this year with my random numbers. Last sem, my RN's 3 and for this sem, it's 85. How lucky can that be? Because of this, I am able to get the class schedules that i want. However, there's always that feeling pa rin na what if i wont be lucky next year?what if my ETA's in the afternoon and i'll be forced to take the most dreaded schedules ever?Ho no. This cant happen. :(

But anyway, here is my class schedule for this semester. i just hope I made the right decision of registering for these classes.
MWF:
1030-1130 - His166 (Dacudao)
1530-1630 - Ph102 (Tolentino)
(Mondays) 1630-1930 - POS159 (Cruz)

TTH
0730-0900 - POS194 (Magadia)
0900-1030 - Th131 (Asis)
1030-1200 - POS131 (Beja)

Ok, so I think im already prepared for Monday's first day. Later this afternoon, I'll buy my school stuff na para go na talaga.

ANYWAY..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MOST MAKULIT PERSON IN THE WORLD,

KARL!!!

Homesick.

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 14:49:39 GMT

it's my second day already here in Katipunan after the 2+ weeks of sembreak. i am still having trouble adjusting and i must say that i am really not that prepared yet for second semester. i am not gonna talk about my sembreak whereabouts anymore coz i think id rather keep them to myself nalang than spill 'em out. mas nalulungkot ako pag naaalala ko eh especially because i really made happy memories in naga last october. i am missing my friends so much, making me regret na hindi ako nag-aral dun (ngayon pa nagsisi kung kelan 3rd year na.haha). but anyway, being assured that i am never forgotten is enough na para hindi ako mashadong malungkot. leche kasi eh.

wah..

i only had you for a moment, not forever.

sembreak

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 09:39:54 GMT

super fast entry:

so far, the sembreak's been a little bad to me. i dont know why. good thing there is one reason why i still want to stay here despite the endless problems i have right now. hay. i hope things will be ok na especially now that i only have one more week to spend doing the things which i dont normally do in manila. basta updates will be posted when i get back in katips. cant think well right now.

braces out, retainers here. :)

All set.

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 02:30:33 GMT

im in mateo ricci right now.the first time i went here was during the first few weeks of school and now i am back and the study hall's all done na.love it.i am here in the computer terminal section and unlike the one in rmt, this one's really nicer and faster.haha.buti na lang walang bawal so we can just check our friendster anytime we want.after this, my pos55 groupmates and i will be computing for the survey results for our research.later tonight, il be studying for my last exam which is polsci 55.Lord,just give me a b+ and il forever be thankful to You.wah.i wanna DL!:(

on a lighter note,tomorrow's the day mama,nikki,joan (our very nice helper)and i are waiting for.yey.finally,we'll go back to naga na!woohoo.after four long months of waiting, we will finally go back to the place where it all began--NAGA!!!naks.wala lang.grabe,you just dont know how excited i am to go back to my real home.hay. i need to enjoy the two-week sembreak that i have--meet up with friends,octoberfest (:D),ukay,coffee,shop,wakeboard,family stuff,etcetc.hay.love it.

eto lang naman.i will miss my blockmates sooo much (cus,jam,carls,mancx,wys,rai,sweetheart,and all the other people whom i dont often see anymore--mark,etc ;)) see you all in two weeks!:)

ALL MY BAGS ARE PACKED..IM READY TO GO!

Updates.

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 05:53:19 GMT

ok.i havent updated for a long (?) time now since i decided not to buy an internet card. it's because id like to concentrate on studying for my finals which is next week na. im not yet done reviewing for my philo orals and it's really driving me nuts.and the polsci55 research paper is not yet halfway done.sniff.

PHOTOS LONG-OVERDUE (Carlos' Birthday Celeb at Home, UST trip)

The Berday Boy, Carlos

Yey,whatta fun party we had!

Cussie, the shy friend.haha

Tired but happy

Strawberry Shortcake and Apple Dumpling

ive been school-hopping for four days straight already to conduct a survey among nursing students. it's really tiring but it's all worth it because i went there with my groupmates and we saw a number of cute people din.well,para sakin,i was able to spot some cute guys.and oh, ive got a new crush.whoever he is will remain a secret.cant reveal because my naga friends know him.haha.

last tuesday, cus, ced, mancx and i went to ust. it was my first time there and the "carpark" surprised me.sana magkaron ng ganun sa ateneo.it's a building na lahat restaurants lang and may parlor,boutique pa sa second floor.and the car park looks like the ones you see in malls.how cool is that?pero it was sooo hot there.tas you need to pay P5 just to pee.so if you just feel like fixing your hair and retouching,dont bother to go to the comfort room coz youll just waste your 5 bucks.we went to hotshots first to eat our snacks.the garlic cheese burger was soooo good.nam.after that, we went to the nursing dept na and waited for the office to open kasi the letter has to be received by the person-in charge there.we waited for like an hour kasi we went there at around 12 so lunchtime nila.it rained pa so jam, who just followed kasi she had class, was soo wet.para lang naman siyang naligo with her clothes on.hay.wawa naman jamjam.so before we left ust,we ate at ate eva's first, and boy the food (roast pork+mashed potato+java rice) was really sumptuous.and i realized kaya siguro ate eva's ang name nung restaurant kasi yung mga waiters and waitresses tawag nila sa mga customers "ate".haha.wala lang.

so after ust, we went to san beda and ceu but unfortunately, we werent allowed to conduct a survey for some stupid and selfish reasons.hay.good thing karl was just in san beda so when he went out,he accompanied us to first strip where most students stay during their free time and right then and there, we ambushed them and begged them to answer our survey.

after that we went home na.grabe the trip was really tiring but we had contacts na so we just gave them the questionnaires and they asked their friends na lang to answer them.

the next day,we went to feu pala nung tuesday tas ang sama grabe nung pangit na manong guard!pinalabas ba naman kami ni carlos sa school nila kasi naka-shorts and slippers daw kami.alam mo yun..ok lang sana if he just approached us in a nice way pero hello,pinagtabuyan niya kami in front of the students.nakakairita talaga!imagine mo nalang yung kahihiyan!sabi niya kasi private school daw sila which is idontknowhowtocallit!!!grr talaga.tas we were outside na nga pero d pa sha tumigil!sabi ba naman kila cus and pasas,wala daw ba kami sapatos at naka-tsinelas kami?!takte talaga!ano kami poor?!i mean,i dont want to brag or anything pero i will never tolerate such action!eh kung ibato ko kaya sa pagmumukha niya ang mga sapatos at tsinelas namin?!sana man lang d na kami pinapasok nung isang guard nung umpisa palang para d na kami inaway nung pangit na guard na yun!ang feeling niya eh!!!!

yesterday naman,cus and i went to ust again because i had to meet up with buboi who was so kind to help us out.we gave him 26 questionnaires and asked him to distribute them to his nursing friends.after that,we went to gateway and then watched "my first wedding". grabe,ang ganda.romantic comedy an super unique ng story.basta maganda.and oh,rachael leigh cook is soooo pretty.ang hot niya pa.kamukha niya si iya villania pati yung hair niya.imagine mo na lang kung yung ulo ni rachael leigh nasa katawan ni mischa barton?!grabe wala na..ang hotttt!

today naman,after my history class, i went to jam's dorm kasi punta uli kami ust to meet up with buboi and jam's friends.and kamusta naman at pagdating ko ay nakatalukbong pa si jam ng kumot.takte,tulog pa!kaya i had to wake her up para maligo na sha.so when we're all set na,we went to ust na.grabe ang mahal ng pedicab ride from legarda station to ust!20 isa!naisip ko tuloy,siguro dapat may law sa philippines na magpupunish sa mga drivers na nanggugulang.and to think,we arent even sure kung nareregulate ba talaga sila.nakakbanas lang ang ganitong sistema.tss.

so eto lang naman..need to stop na kasi i think jam's already done with her work.sorry for the super long entry.

Beerday.

Sat, 07 Oct 2006 05:40:49 GMT

Happy 21st birthday to my friend,
my ex-crush, my ultimate blockmate this sem
the one, the only, the BOSS...

CARLOS!!!

Thanks for all the corny jokes and
pang-aasar. You will always be dear to us.
LIBRE!:D

Freedom.

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 10:51:23 GMT

Yey, this week is already coming to an end!that means the hell week's already over.yipee.ive been waiting for this since God knows when.i have to work hard on the last two weeks though especially on the finals week.ill work my ass off just to get high grades this sem.DL!DL!DL!wahhhh.come to me please!hay.

anyway,i just woke up from a good and peaceful sleep.ive been wanting this for quite sometime already and finally,i got it.hay sarap.nam.haha.theres something which really pissed me off lang paguwi ko.while i was climbing up the last few steps sa napakataas na stairs namin,i saw this big black trash bag blocking the way.it's obviously filled with smelly trash and ants and worms were already crawling all over it.eww talaga.i immediately told mama about this and then she asked our helper to ask the other unit if it's theirs.tas ayun,nobody opened his door for her.badtrip.but we already had this feeling na it's from that "unit"!dont ask.the residents of that unit have a curse.yuck,im such a mean girl huh.haha.ho well.

got nothing more to say right now.ym conference later for philo and il start reading na rin for it for the upcoming oral exams.mehn,im so excited..i wanna surbey!:))

ok..SOMEONE"S GONNA CELEBRATE HIS BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!!greet him!;)

Irritated.

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 12:07:58 GMT

Ok,two exams down, 1 paper and 2 more exams to go.this week is really a hell!i wanna rest already.ranting about these wont really help,but i just cant help it.next week's gonna be a "semi-hell" lang since we need to pass our quantitative research paper na pala on friday next week.it really surprised most of us.nakakainis ba naman kasi kasi hindi kami guided unlike nung kay ms.ferreria.lintek.nakakabadtrip.parang nangangapa nalang kami lagi sa class na to.and to think,weve passed through one major research last sem na but we managed to finish and defend it with smiling faces.pero ito?!takte,wala na!hindi man lang kami binigyan ng time table.basta niya lang sasabihin na o,sa insert day here deadline ng questionnaire for the survey.and kahapon,sasabihin samin na deadline na sa friday?!oh come on,you muzz be kiddin' me huh?!

pero come to think of it,kaya siguro nilagay ni God sa week na to ang lahat ng burdens kasi next week, we need to concentrate na on our research although we still have a pending paper for Philo which is due on Monday.hay.ho well.but you know what i like about this?kasi i am not alone.there are a lot of ateneans experiencing the same thing.grabe,college life is really a different story.this is sooo far from highschool.

anyway,my Goddd,that POS116 exam was so hard.while i was answering the test,there was this urge to just crumple the paper and throw it in the trash can.mehn.correct minus wrong and two points each.wth?!it's unfair pa kasi correct minus wrong na nga,sobrang hirap pa!what was that supposed to mean?!joketime ba to?parang kelangan minemorize na lang namin every word from all the readings,powerpoints,and notes na meron kami.the essay part was sort of a consolation na lang although it was a little difficult pa rin.pero at least hindi all or nothing,dba?and kung naging ganun yun,ay...

tonight,il try to finish my analytical paper.it's 3 pages already and il try to reach 5.hirap kasi it's single-spaced and it should just contain your insights regarding the framework/s you are working on.so technically,no citations.

im actually torn right now.i want this sem to end,yet im having this feeling already na sana wag na lang.im happy being with cus and carlos everyday.im so contented with this kind of setup kahit 0730 class everyday.having both of them around everyday is incomparable.so iniisip ko lagi,what if next sem,malayo na random numbers namin,may pag-asa pa kaya na maging classmates kami?Philo is my only hope since kelangan same section pa rin til next sem.i miss my other blockmates na rin.i dont get to see all of them na.sobrang bihira na lang.:( i miss jam,sweetheart,wys,mark,anne,cha,rai,mancky,cedrik (kahit kaaway mo pa rin ako)..i miss all of you guys.and jamm..sana wag ka na tumuloy.i will really miss you.i dont want you to goooooo.:((

ok,enough na.i need to watch one tree hill and the oc pa and then back to work na uli.

HOTNESS!

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 13:36:27 GMT

DANIEL VOSOVIC OF PROJECT RUNWAY SEASON 2 IS SOOOO DAMN HOT!!!

AGREE?;)

CRUNCH TIME!

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 07:29:15 GMT

yes, this is it!my mind's already set for a sleepless night.il just spend my whole afternoon and night studying for my polsci 130 orals and polsci 116 written exam.mehn,i am soooo freaking out.i dont know where to start and how to start everything.good thing that i was already able to study one of my polsci subjects last week so it would just be easy reviewing for it.what i am worried is my oral exams.it's a group orals and we need to connect the theories with issues such as fashion,music,religion,sports and the like.whew.mehn,i hope we'll do good tomorrow.

REALIZATION: Maganda pala ang feeling na baguhin yung dating ikaw.i mean,ive always been the silent but mataray type of girl..i wont talk to you unless you talk to me first.parang ganun.and now,im switching into a new persona.*tigshing*gusto ko iba naman.parang cool,calm and collected (Naks,Sir Dave!haha).i wanna be extra-friendly na to my close friends, boys and girls alike and friendly to people i dont know.parang il just put a smile on my face always na lang.kahit pa galit sakin,inis,or whatever.kaya ikaw,mr.baller,wag kang magalit kung ganyan binibigay sayong trabaho.mabait naman ako eh,mabait naman kami nina cus.kaso nga lang medjo tamad ka talaga.and if that would be the case,walang kai-kaibigan!haha.

Anyway,ayun lang naman.my day's ok pa naman.i am happy.i am watching the final game of the ateneo-ust game!

GO ATENEO! :)

Ten Things I Hate Right Now.

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 13:49:33 GMT

1. I hate the weather. I dont like the rain or storm or whatever that makes my day gloomy.
2. I hate my super tight schedule next week. Everything seems to be disorganized. I tried making a schedule so I can make things easy for me, but hell, they just dont fit well.
3. I hate my sister for being soooo makalat. She cant fix her things, thus making our desk super magulo and messed up.grr.
4. I hate the analytical paper which i havent even started yet because of the many interruptions and sudden changes in schedules.
5. I hate the feeling that the game tomorrow might be postponed because of this f*ng storm! Mehn, tomorrow's gonna be the first time that ill be watching a live uaap game and then what??? this storm is making me sick! i hate it, really! Gen Ad na lang nga ako ehhhh.boo!
6. I hate the POS 130 orals which will be held on Tuesday, the first day of the oral exams. Mehn, my sched is really freaking me out. I dont know what to do, where to begin, how to do it. It's a group orals, by the way.
7. I hate my History project because it seems that it cant be finished. wah!!! This cant be!!!:((
8. I hate myself for not bringing enough money this afternoon. I wasnt able to buy that black vest which I so wanted to buy because ive been on a hunt for vests for quite sometime now and i cant find something which is wayyy cheaper than the ones being sold in mng.
9. I hate myself for feeling that dreaded feeling again. ho no, this cant be! kei cant fail for the nth time! ho no no!
10. ~~I hate tomorrow, September 28--My heart's 2nd death anniversary. :( i dont owe anyone an explanation. you know what i mean, my friends. you know what im saying..~~

I want a break. I want a good sleep. I need someeee loveeeee.. gimme gimme gimme..

Stomachache.

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 16:38:54 GMT

i woke up this morning realizing that i havent been a good daughter these past few days. so i tried making up to my parents. i tried to be in a good mood. i didnt fight with nikki this morning and i already talked to papa and mama. wala lang. i just want to make every moment that i spend with them happy and memorable. i sometimes answer them back because i guess, i am just enjoying my freedom as a 19-year old. hindi nako kiddo kaya ayun..sumasagot na rin lalo na if i know that i am right. but what i like about being a teenager is that i am able to talk to them like we're both on the same levels and wavelengths. like sa mga pinsan ko, i get to hang out with my cousins who are much older than me and then talk about stuff na minsan pang-adult. yikee.haha. pero wag ka..we talk about current events din. haha. basta anything under the sun. unlike before, parang may generation gap, so yung mga members lang ng every generation sa family namin ang nagsasama-sama at nag-uusap.

i cut my eco class for the firsssstttt time! i had no regrets coz i was able to bond with cussie,rairai and mancky. narealize ko ganun pala kalapit ang marikina sa ateneo.parang i can just go to riverbanks anytime i like. but nooo. i cant. ewan ko pero i have this problem na i cant go anywhere without a companion. kahit sa comfort room lang nga eh. kumusta naman yun? ewan. i always have this feeling na people will look at me from head to toe and if they dont like what im wearing, doing or anything, they'll talk behind my back.i really dont know. feeling ko kasi when i am with someone, im secured..nothing can go wrong. but sometimes, that doesnt happen kasi minsan yung kasama ko, ganun din pala nararamdaman so in short, nag-aasahan lang kami.haha.

i was thinking of sitting-in sa 1530 class sana kaso i was so sleepy and dahil nga bumabawi ako kila mama, i decided to go home na lang, be with them, and sleep. we ate merienda pa together. it always happens naman pero wala lang. masaya lang. we always eat every meal together. well except if papa's not here. so it only happens during weekends and during long breaks na nasa naga kami.:D

grabe, i am feeling the hell in this hell week and on the next hell weeks to come. ive been trying to free myself from stress but i just cant. it's hard not to think about these things especially because they'll greatly affect our grades.hay. i just hope that everything will be done na as soon as possible. i dont wanna think about these. i want all of these over and done! hay..

anyway, the talk kanina was fun although it somehow spoiled the thrill na lalo na sa part ko kasi the speaker was my cousin. he never jokes that way (greeeeennnn) whenever he's with us. haha. kaya kanina parang i was shocked. but benta pa rin.haha.

late at night when all the world is sleeping..i stay up and think of the many things that i still have to do.:( oh well.

I Saw the Sign.

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 15:26:22 GMT

enough of all the dramas. i wanna be happy again. but i dont think ill be able to tell you people the story if i wont go back to what really happened..which means..may drama nanaman..pero konti nalang.;)

kaninang hapon,papa,mama and i got to talk kasi they saw me studying and then they started blabbing again about being in law school.i really dont know why whenever i hear them talk about it parang sumasabog ang tenga ko,umuusok at umiinit na ang ulo ko. so yun na nga ang nangyari.and then i told them what i really want and they didnt agree with me.i dont understand why parents feel that they always know better?parang every little thing kids say, alam na nila yun and they will do everything para i-refute yung sinabi ng anak.so thats basically what happened.

so yun,..

nasira lahat ng kadramahan dahil kay mama. nagjoke ba naman na pagkacornycorny.alam niya daw kasi ang kiliti ko.and there..i was able to find a way para marelease ang nararamdaman ko.so instead of laughing,i cried.and then they kept telling me again what they want for me..that they just want whats best for me. so from then on,i didnt talk na.papa kept on talking to me pero i didnt say a word.i didnt respond to anything they were saying..

so ayun..

while we were eating dinner,we were also watching TV Patrol and guess what???there was this news about the bar exam.na it ended na today.so tumiming naman na i left the table and sat down para manood kahit d pako tapos kumain.and i didnt do it para makita yung news na un or something,but because may ginawa ako.tas biglang i was right infront of the tv nung lumabas ung news na yun.parang it was a sign kasi ive been stuck in this dilemma for quite sometime already and i am really hating it. ayoko pa naman ng nammroblema. so ayun..ang bait ni God kasi binigyan niya ako ng sign.siguro through that he was telling me na "this is for you kei.i want you to become a lawyer.it's your destiny.i want you to help your fellowmen.i want this to be your purpose in this world". o dba?how imaginative.nakausap ko si God at He talked to me through TV Patrol. kumusta naman yun dba? napaka-media.napaka-up-to-date..hmm.magaling.:))

so yun..that ended my misery. i will become a lawyer. i will become a high-caliber lawyer. naks.

tama rin si cussie. legally blonde is a cool thing to think of. iisipin ko na lang si elle. i wanna be like her. na no matter what other people say, go pa rin kasi yun ang purpose niya. hmm. except for the pink thing. haha.

***
ok, change topic..the ateneo-ust game kanina was sooooo impressive. well, may bias ako kasi ateneo ako dba? pero amazing talaga. sabi nga ni kristine, that was the longest one second of her life. and mine too. galing nga kasi when i opened the tv, yun agad. yey. magaling. ako ata ang swerte sa kanila.. kina jc at chris. yehess.. close. haha. grabe, hands down ako sa kanila. ang hirap nun ah..1 second.pero magaling talaga. *clapclap* pero grrr..hindi dahil basketball player ka, excuse ka ha..hmm..lagot ka samin.isa kang grrrrrrrr. lagot ang bulsa mo!boo!

oh well.got to sleep na. goodnight world. :)

Emo-ing.

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 15:56:46 GMT

Ang PAG-IBIG kong ito
Luha ang tanging nakamit buhat sa'yo
Kaya't sa Maykapal tuwina'y dalangin ko
Sana Kapalaran ko ay MAGBAGO.

*tear*

Rain, Rain, Go Away.

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 07:38:52 GMT

i guess i still have a hangover of the argument papa and i had last night. until now, i cant help but think about the decisions i need to make especially now that i am already in third year college. in just one year, i will be graduating and i will have to spend another four years studying in law school. much as i wanted to fulfill my parents' dream for me, i feel like there is something telling me at the back of my mind that i am not suited in this profession. my paternal side is a family of lawyers and papa wants me to join the bandwagon. yes, ive been wanting this since i was a kid but just like anything else, my mind's also changing. women are fickle-minded and i am a very good example of that. i must say that right at this moment, i am still on the verge of changing my mind and switching careers. oh well. there's nothing permanent in this world, but change.

moving on, i woke up early this morning, walked my way to school, attended history, eco (which is as usual super boring) and the most boring of all my subjects--pos55. good thing though that i have long breaks, so i got to go to the lib with carlos and cus, took a nap and read one of the many readings lined up for me to read over the weekend.after history and eco, i had this feeling already that i will not be able to enjoy my last class, which is not new anymore. and just as what i expected, i wasnt able to grasp everything ma'am medoza's saying--chi-square and the like. i thought after first year, math is already over, but no...mathematics is still haunting me until now.boo!i hate this. buti na lang, cus was beside me and she cared to explain whatever it was that i did not understand. nakakadisturb kasi boses ni ma'am mendoza kaya ayun..ang bilis niya pa magsalita. she isnt a math teacher. siguro, she's just good lang talaga sa research whatevers kaya nadadala niya kahit yung mga standard deviation, variance, dispersion, etc.

one thing more..i have a lot of things to do this weekend and on the weeks to come. andami aaralin, dami papers, dami readings, dami projects. i cant decide anymore which i would prioritize first.and yung sa lex pa which is freaking me out kasi one-man committee lang naman kasi ako..kumusta naman un, doc and pub?! andami kelangan ipass and ice isnt texting me back and answering my calls kaya i dont know where to get the pictures in her multiply.wahhh..i wanna cry! i wanna go back to naga and take a longggggg rest. sniff.

sana magsembreak na. sana magbakasyon na. rest i need. tear.

meron pa pala.. i havent watched any pirates of the carribean movie. i didnt know na aside from capt jack sparrow, there's this capt. barbosa pa pala. hay..napahiya tuloy ako. i dont know who the hell he is. i thought he's a filipino. kung tutuusin naman, mukhang Filipino naman talaga name niya dba? it's just that hindi ko lang talaga siya kilala. and i dont have any plans of watching pirates, too. boo.

naalala ko lang..kaya siguro akala ko Filipino siya because of capt partoza who was our interviewee for our quali research last sem. kahiya. </p>

Pissed Off Part II.

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 13:37:58 GMT

Mehn. i hate being pressured. ive had a lot of this since elementary and i couldnt afford experiencing more of it now that i am already getting older and older by the day. i believe i am already old enough for things like this. i admire papa and mama's endless support in everything that i do, but for Chrissake, i am 19 years old and i know ive already matured over the years! sa dinami-dami ba naman ng naexperience ko since God knows when, who has the guts to tell me that i am stuck in my childhood?! whatev.

anyway..ayun..tumawag si papa. there's something which i dont like about papa, but he still keeps on doing it. i guess he just wants to keep me motivated, but i dont think it's doing me any good. he told me to start reading newspapers and watch news coz knowledge on the current issues is "highly-necessary" in the LAE (law whatever entrance test). kasi passing the LAE is not enough. there's an interview after it which would cover current events. c'mon, this isnt my thing! i am the type of person who doesnt care about other people's business so why bother minding these things? you see, it's not that i am insensitive of whatever's happening around me. it's just that i sometimes find news pathetic and exaggerated. just like what we've discussed this morning in POS130, media tends to sensationalize everything that's happening. kaya ayun..i find news pathetic. i am not saying na they are senseless and useless. it's just that i find them impractical sometimes.

so ayun, nagkwento si papa about dun sa anak ng ninong ko who's a graduating law student sa up law school. at sabi niya ganun nga raw interview sa LAE. nakakainis lang. so without any qualms, i told papa na hindi ko naman talaga gusto to eh. kaya ayun, napagalitan ako. kasi just like what parents would always say, they just want the best for their kids. dont they even realize na anything is possible when that time comes. e pano kung d ako pumasa? pano kung pumasa ako sa lae pero bumagsak ako sa interview? pano kung d ako maging magaling na lawyer? o dba, ang daming what if's?! i know this isnt good but hello, this is reality. this is whats gonna happen sometime soon. eto ang real world. and i cant do anything about it. if it will happen, it will happen. duh.

im not saying na ill be pessimistic about my future. shempre just like anybody else, i want a bright future. siguro may quarterlife crisis lang ako. and feel na feel ko siya ngayon. it's killing me like hell. right now, i am seeing myself as a fashion consultant in a prestigious magazine (kahit sa Philippines lang). Naks naman..ang taas ng pangarap. haha. gusto ko rin maging doctor. our family's a regular visitor of medical city and seeing those people dressed in immaculately clean white robes just make me feel sooo good. i wanna be on their shoes. i wanna prescribe medicines, operate, and meet different kinds of people. gusto ko rin mag-foreign service. gusto ko sa UN or sa EU (Thanx to Ice for the idea) para naman magamit ko ang course ko. gusto ko office work. is there a course which covers all the different courses? i mean parang isang course tas aaralin mo na dun lahat..all-encompassing ba..para naman mapanindigan ko na ang pagiging jack-of-all-trades ko..yehess..that is so grade six.haha.

anyway..

BOTTOM LINE:
See you cussie sa law school..UP man or ATENEO, ok lang. Just those schools, nothing more.haha.

Time's running too fast. i cant let every minute slip off my fingers. :(

Kwento ni Nikki.

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 11:51:35 GMT

While we were eating dinner a while ago, Nikki brought up this story from his Span teacher about his brother's friend, Louie.

Gumagawa ng lapida yung kapatid ng teacher niya and when Louie's lola died, he asked him to make a lapida for her. But he couldnt remember her real name, so do you know what he asked him to place there na lang?

Lola ni Louie

Kumusta naman yun?! Lola ni Louie! haha. And it took three months pa before it was changed. oh well.

Funny how some people manage to make fun of sensitive things like death. :-S

Working and Reflecting.

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 05:32:17 GMT

Ayun..i don't know exactly how to start this post. There are a lot of things running inside my head that i cannot really point out which should be written first.

Yesterday, my class ended at 130. But since we had to attend the forum on democracy and authoritarianism (I couldnt remember the title--basta it's about Martial Law), i was able to go home at around 3 na. jam and i had to go to gateway because karl invited us to go and jam with them after the san beda game in araneta. so i waited for jam's class to finish and after an hour, we met up at mini stop and went to gateway together. the san beda game wasnt finished yet when we arrived at gateway so we went window shopping muna and checked and tried on some clothes (well, si jam lang). i had fun dressing jam up.whoopsie..what i mean is i chose clothes for jam to try out..parang barbie doll.;) jam looked so gorgeous with all those clothes. she wouldnt wear those on ordinary days so it was really a privilege to choose clothes for her. we took some pictures, but unfortunately they are not with me so i cant post them. basta, jam was soooo beautiful with those clothes. i hope she'll be able to wear those na.

so anyway, we were in speedo when we saw people in "red" arriving. kaya i texted karl where we were and told him to pick us up.but then..he didnt come.so i texted ron and asked him if he was with karl. he was at the foodcourt but he still went all the way from the third floor to the ground floor to meet us up. and so the three of us went to the foodcourt and there we saw karl with my crush.yesss,ang gwapo niya!tas yun..while waiting for them to decide where they plan to go, jam, karl and i ate our dinner first. umalis na pala si crush nung umoorder kami kaya banas pagbalik namin.boo!unfortunately, hindi sila nakapagdecide and one by one,umalis na rin sila.haha.kaya it all ended up with the three (karl,jam and me) of us watching the last full show of "you are the one" and yehess,it's really the one. i loved it. grabe ang saya especially if the lead actors are two people whom you really like. loved toni's body, loved sam's cuteness.;) it was also my first time to watch a last-full show movie and grabe, dun pala lumalabas ang mga celebrities..kahit mga feeling celebs lang.haha.and guess what???nakita namin si ate glow may kasamang boylet na mukhang tambay.haha. twilight dancers yehesss. ang daming bading kagabi!haha. i swear, paglabas nila sa cinema, i was shocked kasi ang dami talaga! nakita namin yung guy from that indie film.haha.

ayun, we went home na after the movie. i slept late thats why i still feel sleepy and tired. but i had fun yesterday kaya ok lang.

the sad thing though is hindi nako pinayagan for tomorrow's cads event. sniff. dami daw kasi gagawin.i hate it.huhu.cussie, kwentuhan mo na lang ako..and yess..magvideo ka naman..para naman makita ko siya sumayaw.hehe.;)

this morning, while i was dressing up, i found something in one of my pants' pockets.P100!!!that was so weird coz i couldnt remember putting a 100 peso bill in my pants' pocket and sobrang tagal na niya nalabhan.well, i was able to realize something after that..ang honest naman ng katulong namin.i salute her for that!:D

philo was so fun, as usual.nakakatawa yung example ni sir about katotohanan.haha.long-distance relationship (ldr)!takte!haha.ayun..may naalala nanaman ako kaya naintegrate nanaman mga alam ko about that sa topic namin kanina.oh well.i realized kanina na ldr's wont really work.no hopes for that.no matter how much you tell yourself na it will work for you, but if it wont to your partner, everything will just fall out of place and before you know it, break na kayo. theres really no way for you to find out what each other's doing coz you're living in two different places, far from each other. thats a sad sad sad reality and we gotta deal with it na lang.but come to think of it, if people would just be "very" trustworthy, honest and faithful, i am sure that this is not impossible. when will this happen? no one knows.:(

ayun, i am currently working on my POS116 4th essay. i am stuck sa intro. the reading's a little hard to understand kaya ayun. argh. the next two weeks are hell! dami gagawin. sniff.

Finally.

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 16:09:33 GMT

At last..*applause*

I have finally settled with a layout which i think i can somehow pull off pa rin even if i am not that techie. i swear i am such a loser when it comes to webpage designing. i already forgot those stuff taught back in my highschool computer classes. i am such a loser. boo kei. but anyway, thanks cus and carlos (my only friends in lj kasi i cant add people yet.haha) for your support. okay, let's do this!haha.

i think i have to end this here muna. my mind's not set yet for writing. i just finished reading the first part of the last reading assigned for my pos116 class. this week's gonna be a chill week. but starting on thursday, im gonna work my ass off for the tons of work ill be working on over the weekend. sniff.